Homerun balls and Parisian dream

Bonjour!

You're probably wondering what the heck all those weird stuff  are.

Well, one of the wonderful beaux of Delta Gammar Rho, Jonghwa Lee, is generous enough to share some of Korean food with me!

Apparently, his sister sent him a package full of Korean food, and I kinda asked for some...

(I know.. pitiful, I am. haha but I no care!)

Anyway, so the green boxed stuff are like cream-puffed balls except it's chocolate-puffed balls!

(they are called "Homerun balls!")
Yes, yummmmmmy!

and the two little cartons are soy milk!
Oh I love soy milk!

and the two packages in the very front are seaweed, which I love to eat with oatmeal that are cooked dry.

I know, it sounds really weird and nasty to yall. but I no care!

and the rest are ramen noodles. (yes, korean ramen noodles are the best)

I just want to say "THANK YOU" for giving me such homie comfort. :))

and just a little outfit I put together wishing I could go walk around the Effel tower right now.

on a sunny day. with a straw berry ice cream in one hand.

I shall, I shall, some day!

shirt, pants, earrings, clutch bag, shoes

His plan, I'm feelin' it!

Okay, so you know how you have highs and lows in your days, weeks, months, years, and in your entire life? and when you have highs, you are super excited, give thanks to the Lord, and talk all about it to family and friends. and when you have lows, you may question God but you still pick up the strength He gives you. and you just sit, wait, and wish the storm would be over soon. OR you try to learn lessons through the storm, which I respect people who do that sooo much. anyway so you do deal with highs and lows differently, right?

and then.... time passes and when you look back, do you feel like the whole thing was His plan?

His plan to teach you a lesson of .... peace? patience? or self-control?

So I "had" (past perfect tense=i'm past it) been distressed with the fact that I was broke and just could not get a job on campus. Even the cafeteria, a place with their arms open wide for student workers, had all their shifts filled up. but I realized that His grace is sufficient for me and He will provide whatever I need if I just let Him work through me. so I let that go. I think that was the point where I let go of not only the money circumstances but also everything else that has potential to be distressing.

and then here are my highs and lows:

9-29 Phone situation worked out through kindhearted family of Haley Rogers

(high)

10-9 Emotions exploded and lost its control: indulged on sugar

(low)

(I know this seems like a small matter; but for a health-freak like me, it is quite a deal)

10-10 Tutoring job in the last minute

(high)

And then the kid I tutored boosts his average up from 57% to 80%!

10-16 Got back from fall break and started feeling super lonely and empty

(low.....)

10-17 Got a super nice, flattering, honoring comment on my research proposal
by my Advanced Research professor

(high)

10-18 Sudden frustrations, anger, and all the emotional junk

(low)

10-18 Tutoring rate was increased from $15 to $20

(high)

Okay, well some of the lows, I feel like it is Satan knowing that I can get affected by moods very easily (since I have the history of depression) and just trying to mess me up.

but thank the Lord that I am aware of the Satan's dirty little moves and that I am continuously lifted up and encouraged by the strength of God!

but today's low... it's different, ya'll.

Last night, I went to the Sanctuary (worship service at a church where we just praise the Lord with singing for an hour) and the Holy Spirit touched my heart.

I always say like a habig in my prayers that I would submit my life to Him, but last night was REAL. I just had to knelt down and put myself down on the ground in front Him. I could not resist the strong presence of the Holy Spirit. and I like intensely confessed to Him that I am all His. I asked Him to completely break me down and make me a servant He wants to make me. My heart cried out to Him. I seriously wanted Him to touch my soul and take my life away from me. (Not physically but.. you know.. metaphorically.. ha..)

and... I felt Him saying, "Are you ready for this? I am going to break you since you asked. but it will hurt. Are you ready for this?"

and my soul said,

"YES"

and I think the sudden emotion burst out from this morning was kinda a part of the process of breaking myself down and getting rid of ME out of me. It was over a trivial matter and I apologized. (Thankfully, it was well accepted) and it made me think a lot. I am still in the process of figuring out what the burst out was about. but I strongly feel that God is putting me on the road for complete submission and servanthood.

To be completely honest, I am a little bit anxious just because I do not want to disappoint the Father; but He probably knows my heart and the desires I have. so I am ready. and I feel like I've started on the journey. I do not know how long it will take, how hurtful it will be, and how much I would have to break my ego-shell and just strip myself to strangers out there, but I am ready.

Ready to get out of my slough.

Season of Pumpkin, Chai, Caramel, Cinnamon, and everything Spicy!

Okay, so if you have not heard of Pumpkin Pie Shake or tried it,

You've GOT TO.

Why?

Because it is soooooooo delicious!

Yes, Yes. The Season is HERE!

Fall! Autumn! Fall! Autumn!
All the green starts getting bored of their monochrome being and start wearing colors!

Then they get crispy, decide to fall off their branches, and get trampled!

Haha. What a season.

I love everything abou fall.

The color, the smell, the atmophere, the excitement for lower temp., and mostly food.

Foods and drinks of fall are so great.

chai latte thankfully stays available at coffee shops all four seasons.

it is a good reminder of sentimental fall.

but the things that come out in fall only, like "Pumpkin Latte" with a soft touch of "Cinnamon".

I don't even know what to say. haha.

Haha all the food you get to have for thanksgiving dinner?
My family does a huge turkey, homemade noodles, mashed potatoes with phenomenal gravy, stuffings with and without oysters, corn casserole, cranberry salads, pumpkin pie, pecan pie, and only my (host)mom knows what else will be on that wonderful thanksgiving dinner table this year!
I CAN'T WAIT.

One of the reasons I love America: thanksgiving dinner.

So homy, family-oriented, heart-warming feelings with full of smiles and laughter.

And the feeling of being full and happy in the tummy.

UMMMMMMMMM.

Okay, I've talked about food waaaaay too much.

I am a woman. All women, as you should know by now, LOVE food.

One of the wonderful joys in life!

Besides the wonderful God-given food of fall, I also love the change in the outfits.

I personally really like knitwears like sweaters, hats, gloves, scarves, and all sorts of things.

(Oh and flannels! It is not knitwear but it's perfect fall outfit!)

Not too bulky for winter but thin enough to feel the cold breeze yet warm enough not to freeze.

YES. you know what kinda outfits I have in my mind, right?

(I am not sure if this is exactly what I had in my mind but it is sorta! haha.

I saw other bloggers put their favorite outfits together like fashion portfolio

so I thought I might try, too!)

And Last but not the least because it is the Most Important,

I love fall because all the changes happening in the works of His hands remind me, once again,

how awesome He is. How wonderfully and fearfully His creation, us human beings, is.

Recently, when I meditate upon those tall trees around the campus and the green grass with the sun shining on them, I feel like I am in the garden of Eden. I know. Lame.

But I start imaging how those trees on campus start showing their buds,branches, leaves, and flowers.

and I start having goose bumps about how He created all those simply with His command with authority. AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So yeah since I had fall break, I talked to the Lord for about two hours.

Fell asleep in the middle :)

but it was really refreshing and nice to just not worry about time and to be in His word, all relaxed and chilled in the front lawn.  

I was directed to read Psalm 139 through my devotional book.

and this chapter became my new favorite bible scripture.

It is so refreshing, thirst-quenching, soul-satiating, and encouraging.

The expressions used are just so beautiful! :))))

Oh man I am really bad at keeping up with blog so it will take two whole days to write everything that happened ever since my last blog. so I am going go into gestalt mode - here and now!

I am not going to mention what happened in the past but only what is happening "here and now"!

haha

oh oh oh one more thing before I publish this post.

Lately, I've gotten to know some Chinese students at Harding.

At first, I just didn't even think about getting to know them because they were always by themselves and didn't look like they wanted to make friends that were not chinese.

(yeah how stupid of me to think that way. who does not want to broden their social network?)

but yeah I just never gave any thought to them.

but now I've gotten to hung out with them and stuff, I realized that they are so sweeeeeeet!

They just cluster together because they are from their home country and very family-oriented.

One time I went over to one of the chinese students' apartment, me and two other non-chinese friends ate as they cooked for us. but ther rest of them, who are chinsese, waited for hours to get all the cooking done. They are so patient, giving, and loving. They welcome people with their arms held wide.

and I do not know why I never realized that.

and I feel very indifferent and ignorant at the fact that I didn't try to get to know them!

but now I'm thankful that God opened the door for new friendship.

and I want to get to know each of them as an individual soul and their culture.

Okay, that's all.

May His blessings be with you!